Every week I’m left with disbelief that 20 minutes have passed by that quickly…
Aiza idolized the young Kousei. He was like a superhero to him. Playing to perfection, just showing up to a recital and leaving as if he was never there in the first place. Aiza is shocked to see his idol play in such a fashion. The Kousei who would show up, destroy competitions, and then leave is now gone. Instead, there’s a unrefined Kousei who makes mistakes. Over the years, the gap between the two has closed, on top of Kousei losing the ability to play. For the first time, Aiza is seeing Kousei as a human, rather than someone who he could never reach.
With Hiroko around, we can finally get some insight on Kousei’s mother. His perspective might have been a bit warped because of his age. His mother seemed to be extremely protective of him, not wanting him to follow in her footsteps. It wasn’t until Hiroko pushed her to teach him where Kousei’s suffering began. She appears to have a bit of guilt for what she put him through, which is why she wants to continue to watch him grow.
Staying to hear the results was a real eye opener for Kousei. As a kid, he never cared for them, and even now, he’s not expecting any results. But seeing how important it is for the other participants was a huge deal. Some of these kids are completely ecstatic while others are crushed.
Seeing how emotional everyone was got to Kousei. All his life, people had called him a robot, a puppet and it got to the point where he accepted it. Playing on that stage again, he realizes that he’s not so different from everyone else. He feels the same disappointment, the same agony, the same joy as everyone else. Like everyone else, they have their motivations for pursuing what they love and he’s finally found his.
I’m growing increasingly concerned for Kaori’s future. As we move on, they drop small hints that her condition may not be the best. We already know she has an illness, but it seems like she stopped playing the violin for a period of time. It wasn’t until recently that she’s wanted to leave a lasting impression, thus picking it back up. Her final words as well, quoting Charlie Brown, makes me think that she’s fully aware of her situation.
The ending had to be one of the most beautiful scenes this year. Thanks to Kaori, Kousei has come such a long way. He never would have gotten back on the stage if it hadn’t been for her. Even before then, he would never admit his feelings to her as well. He was content with Watari stealing all of her attention, and just sitting on the sidelines. Rather than hesitating, he comes right out with it, he plays for her.
You can watch Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso Episode 11 on Crunchyroll